L.G.L.G

It's crazy the things I run into while cleaning out my inbox and folders. Ran into this article I wrote back in 2009, but never published it anywhere. And no I haven't proof read it either LOL

Let Go and Let God!

When we say “Let Go Let God” do we really know what we are declaring? Truthfully I didn’t either till last night. Let it be made 100% clear that I have said “Oh I’m just going to Let go and let God” and being of the Choleric temperament I tend to want to get back in the drivers seats in a few hours/days or sometimes even weeks. But how am I letting it go if I’m back at it again? And what is letting go and letting God truly mean? Well I’m glad you asked (even though you didn’t) It means total surrender and submission, but of course we live in a society where those two words mean the worst. I mean let’s define the word surrender shall we? To give up possession of or power over; yield to another on demand or compulsion & submission defined is as the act of submitting something to another for decision, consideration, etc. YESSH! That doesn’t sound pretty at all. I mean giving in, and not doing it my way 100% sounds pretty harsh huh? I mean my plans after graduation is to “conquer the world kind of like Hitler minus the mass genocide and hatred of human kind”. How’s that going to work with this whole Letting Go and Letting God concept? Again GLAD YOU ASKED!!!!!!  You’re significant other comes up to and tells you “I really want to you to stop talking to so and so” You’re first reaction as mine would be. You have got to be kidding me, of course if you are smart you won’t say that out loud. Some things are better left unsaid and sadly most days I don’t practice that, but that’s a whole different subject. Weeks go on and he or she finds out about that text the other person send you merely because they were having a hard day and wanted some one to talk to. They ask you again “I really don’t want you to talk this person”. By now if you are a smart person and want to keep your relationships going with your SO you start cutting ties with this other person. No if, an’s or but’s. All you know is he or she and they must have a good reason for asking so. Well didn’t you just submit to one of their wishes?

 It means you gave up and you gave in and we just can’t have that. I have jokingly said may times “after graduation I’m going to conquer". But in all honesty isn’t that what we all hope to achieve in the long run. We want the car, the house, the bling, the family that compliments it all. And in order to achieve this you have to be a winner, always willing to fight for it, “when the going gets tough the tough gets going”. I was thinking how is that we can submit to our boyfriends/girlfriends/friends/cousins/families wishes, but when it comes to the wishes of God we want to tweak it. We want to be God, but let go and let God at the same time…isn’t that ironic? So to my family and friends who say LET GO AND LET GOD remember the next time you say it; it’s more than a statement that show’s in your demeanor for 5 mins then you try to control things again IT IS A LIFESTYLE! Like Jesus said in his final hours “not mine but thy will be done” Now that’s truly letting go and letting God.

My Ideal Job

Recently I have been addicted to everything HGTV. I mean I watch episodes after episodes of House Hunters, and Property Brothers etc. Every time I watch a renovation I can't help but think "WOW that would be a great job to have". Granted this is a bit odd for a female I love renovations. I've always enjoyed putting together things, and figuring out how things work. So I put together a list of things I would like my ideal job to look like:

Renovation
Photography
Writing (NOT TECHNICAL!!!)
Helping others
Traveling

You know in that progressive commercial there is a bundler?? You place a bunch of items together and it bundles it all up for you....can I have one of those for my career???

Are you ready for Hell?

We recently commemorated the 10 year anniversary of September 11. People from near and far poured out their stories and sentiments. I have on many occasions tried to imagine myself on one of those planes or even one of those buildings that burned down. I have wondered "would I have jumped?" "would I have been one of the people that survived to tell about it?" "would I have passed out?". I remember on the day off I spoke with a friend about burn victims. The different levels of burn from 1st degree to 3rd degree, and recently in church we've been talking a lot of the current situation of this nation.

As I was driving home the conversation I had about the burn victims kind of came back to me,and I came home and started doing some research. I searched a few sites to see how hot it would have been inside the WTC when it was burning. I couldn't pin point the exact degree in Celsius as each website had their own P.O.V on how hot it may have been. I got anywhere from 200 to 1000 and then some even higher.

Going back to the conversation of a burn victim, my friend explained in detail the different types of burns. It made me cringe listening to it. I mean can you imagine it? First your top layer of skin melts followed by a deeper burn all the way through to your flesh, and bones. If you are lucky you can pass out from smoke inhalation or shock. Then a bigger truth hit me....that's exactly what hell is going to be like...being burned every single day, every single moment of your life. This time you can't pass out or jump you have to endure it each and every single time. It really got me thinking "Are people really ready for hell?" If you don't think you could have handled being inside the WTC on the day of the attacks are you willing to risk living through that every single day of your life? Is a moment of worldly pleasure truly worth a lifetime of that?

Forgive so you can be forgiven

Last week while reading  up for my next Bible Study, I came across the chapter on forgiveness. I learned more about the importance of forgiveness within 30 minutes than I have known my whole life. I kept examining my life to see if there was anyone in my life that I have no forgiven. I kept thinking of people who have recently hurt me, and when I thought about I did not feel any resentment, however the idea of talking to them was a bit more harder. I kept thinking OMG I have to talk to them in order to gain forgiveness. So to get a deeper depth into if I am harboring un-forgiveness I spoke with my pastors wife. I asked her "is it possible to forgive someone, but not talk to them". To my surprise she said "yes" , which completely caught me off guard. She started to share a story with me about a dear friend of hers who she loved with her heart, but she was burned by this person way too many times. She went on to say how if she was around this person that this particular person will jack up her spirit. She started explaining to me saying that you can forgive people, but that doesn't mean they are necessarily good for your life or your spirit.

So here I am laying in my bed, and thinking off all the people we still allow to come into our lives, and jack up our spirits because we think in order to get in "good with GOD" we have to tolerate certain folks. Hmmmmm.....that's all I got folks....not a long entry....just an observation....