I smiled as we hung up the phone. I had a few tears in my eyes, but they were tears of joy not off sadness. As soon as I hung up our 45 minute conversation my phone automatically prompted to add this unknown number into my phone book. I stared at it intently thinking "maybe it's time I add this number back into my address book". I stared at it too long, because the prompt went away. I smiled anyways...because I knew that's not a number I would forget anytime soon. It's been itched in my memory like a tatoo. I have had many memories with this number. I have called it endless amounts of times....texted it more times than I could recall...fought with it....cried with it...laughed... broke up with it...made up with it.... even fell in love with the person who this number belonged too. So you see regardless of if I added it or not didn't make much of a difference, because it has left it's mark in my life. So I put my phone down wiped away the few tears that has formed in my eyes, and laid down with the satisfaction of knowing that even when you think all hope is gone, God has a way of turning it around. It was never the ending I wanted, but it's the ending I needed.

In my late teen age and early 20's the closest thing to a religious experience I received weekly was hitting up the hottest parties of Dallas and it's surrounding areas. I fellowshipped with my weekly party friends, and danced like David danced. During this time of  "fellowship" I have had the opportunity to meet some interesting people. People that I would not have met other wise. These people intrigued me, interested me, and most importantly impressed me. One of the most impressive types of people I met during this time were the ones that partied hard, but when we sat down to have intimate conversations they would share their religious overviews. They knew GOD, they could quote scriptures, and they seemed so comfortable with the fact that they knew of this GOD. I was mesmerized...I wished I were more like them...I wished I too could quote scriptures, and knew a Christian song or two (that came out in the recent years instead of 1999). But I didn't, I was just another lost soul....hurt by church, and it's people, and didn't care about being saved.

Fast forward four and half years: The very thing I admired in people is the very thing I detest about Christianity. In the past four and half years GOD has started to do a work in me where I began to know him more for myself. He started dealing with my personal demons, and started to cover my past walk of shame with his Grace. The more I got to know him the more I realized how the people I once admired were a walking contradiction of who HE is. He isn't for people who sleep around with different women all the time, or folks who defile their body, and mind. These couple of days I have been walking on edge. I see so much of Christianity being defiled, and corrupted. People who tweek the word of GOD to fit their lifestyle. In fact there has been many instances within the past week where I just wanted to shut people up, and tell them "No boo that's not GOD that's just your flesh. And if you think that's GOD then we don't serve the same GOD".

My last semester of college as I sat in the library with a group of people who became good friends of mine in that class started talking about phone applications. One of them said "They have a Bible app now can you believe it?" To which I replied "They sure do I have it on my phone" I knew as soon as I said it she regretted saying that out loud, but I was not the type to take offense to such things. As soon as I showed my group the phone with the Bible app in the main menu my guy friend goes "Mmmhmmm I hear about girls like you". I must say that's not the first time I have heard that however, each time I hear that I'm thinking I don't know what you've heard, but I follow Christ. Then I got to thinking there are so many other people out there who are like the group of people I hung out with back in Dallas, and when the outside world looks in that's what they think Christianity is all about. A community full of posers, and if you are a true believer then you are judgmental or too religious.

Well I'm here to set the record straight not all Christian do whatever they want,and then claim GOD. Trust me I'm not saying I was or even am perfect. I have made plenty of mistakes throughout my lifetime, and continue to make it, but as I continued to get to know GOD his words let me know of there's a big difference between knowing off me and knowing me personally.

Romans Chapter 6

¹ What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? ² By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? ³ Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? ⁴ We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.

He IS....

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God Throughout the BIBLE

In Genesis, Jesus Christ is the Seed of the Woman who will crush the head of the serpent.
In Exodus, He is the Passover Lamb.
In Leviticus, He is our High Priest.
In Numbers, He is the pillar of cloud by day, and the pillar of fire by night.
In Deuteronomy, He is the Prophet & Mediator like Moses.
In Joshua, He is the Captain of our Salvation.
In Judges, He is our Judge and Law-Giver.
In Ruth, He is our Kinsmen-Redeemer.
In 1 and 2 Samuel, He is our trusted Prophet.
In Kings and Chronicles, He is our Reigning King.
In Ezra, He is the rebuilder of the broken-down walls of human life.
In Esther, He is our Mordechai.
In Job, He is our innocent Sufferer
In Psalms, He is our Shepherd.
In Proverbs and Ecclesiastes, He is our Wisdom.
In Song of Solomon, He is our loving Bridegroom.
In Isaiah, He is the Prince of Peace.
In Jeremiah, He is our Righteousness
In Lamentations, He is our weeping Prophet.
In Ezekiel, He is the Son of Man
In Daniel, He is the fourth man in the fiery furnace.
In Hosea, He is the Faithful Husband forever married to the back-slider.
In Joel, He is the Baptizer of the Holy Ghost and fire.
In Amos, He is our Burden-Bearer.
In Obadiah, He is Mighty to Save.
In Jonah, He is our Great Foreign Missionary.
In Micah, He is the Messenger with Beautiful Feet.
In Nahum, He is the Avenger of God's Elect.
In Habbakuk, He is God's Evangelist crying "In the midst of the years, revive your work!"
In Zepheniah, He is our Saviour.
In Haggai, He the Restorer of God's Lost Heritage.
In Zechariah, He is the Fountain opened up in the House of David for sin and uncleanliness.
In Malachi, He is the Son of Righteousness rising with healing in His wings.
In Matthew, He is the King of the Jews.
In Mark, He is the Servant.
In Luke, He is the Friend of Sinners
In John, He is the Word of God.
In Acts, He is the Saviour of the World.
In Romans, He is the Righteousness of God.
In 1 Corinthians, He is the Rock giving us water in the wilderness.
In 2 Corinthians, He is the Fulfillment of all God's Promises
In Galatians, He is the Promised Seed of Abraham
In Ephesians, He is the Head of the Church.
In Philippians, He is your Joy.
In Colossians, He is your Completeness.
In 1 and 2 Thessalonians, He is your Hope.
In 1 Timothy, He is your Faith.
In 2 Timothy, He is your Stability.
In Philemon, He is your Benefactor.
In Titus, He is Truth.
In Hebrews, He is the Author and Perfector of our faith.
In James, He is the Power behind your faith.
In 1 Peter, He is your Example.
In 2 Peter, He is your Purity.
In 1 John, He is your Life.
In 2 John, He is your Teacher.
In 3 John, He is your Motivation.
In Jude, He is the Foundation of your faith.
In Revelation, He is your Coming King.