In my late teen age and early 20's the closest thing to a religious experience I received weekly was hitting up the hottest parties of Dallas and it's surrounding areas. I fellowshipped with my weekly party friends, and danced like David danced. During this time of  "fellowship" I have had the opportunity to meet some interesting people. People that I would not have met other wise. These people intrigued me, interested me, and most importantly impressed me. One of the most impressive types of people I met during this time were the ones that partied hard, but when we sat down to have intimate conversations they would share their religious overviews. They knew GOD, they could quote scriptures, and they seemed so comfortable with the fact that they knew of this GOD. I was mesmerized...I wished I were more like them...I wished I too could quote scriptures, and knew a Christian song or two (that came out in the recent years instead of 1999). But I didn't, I was just another lost soul....hurt by church, and it's people, and didn't care about being saved.

Fast forward four and half years: The very thing I admired in people is the very thing I detest about Christianity. In the past four and half years GOD has started to do a work in me where I began to know him more for myself. He started dealing with my personal demons, and started to cover my past walk of shame with his Grace. The more I got to know him the more I realized how the people I once admired were a walking contradiction of who HE is. He isn't for people who sleep around with different women all the time, or folks who defile their body, and mind. These couple of days I have been walking on edge. I see so much of Christianity being defiled, and corrupted. People who tweek the word of GOD to fit their lifestyle. In fact there has been many instances within the past week where I just wanted to shut people up, and tell them "No boo that's not GOD that's just your flesh. And if you think that's GOD then we don't serve the same GOD".

My last semester of college as I sat in the library with a group of people who became good friends of mine in that class started talking about phone applications. One of them said "They have a Bible app now can you believe it?" To which I replied "They sure do I have it on my phone" I knew as soon as I said it she regretted saying that out loud, but I was not the type to take offense to such things. As soon as I showed my group the phone with the Bible app in the main menu my guy friend goes "Mmmhmmm I hear about girls like you". I must say that's not the first time I have heard that however, each time I hear that I'm thinking I don't know what you've heard, but I follow Christ. Then I got to thinking there are so many other people out there who are like the group of people I hung out with back in Dallas, and when the outside world looks in that's what they think Christianity is all about. A community full of posers, and if you are a true believer then you are judgmental or too religious.

Well I'm here to set the record straight not all Christian do whatever they want,and then claim GOD. Trust me I'm not saying I was or even am perfect. I have made plenty of mistakes throughout my lifetime, and continue to make it, but as I continued to get to know GOD his words let me know of there's a big difference between knowing off me and knowing me personally.

Romans Chapter 6

¹ What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase? ² By no means! We are those who have died to sin; how can we live in it any longer? ³ Or don’t you know that all of us who were baptized into Christ Jesus were baptized into his death? ⁴ We were therefore buried with him through baptism into death in order that, just as Christ was raised from the dead through the glory of the Father, we too may live a new life.