Sunday, August 29, 2010

The Facebook Epidemic

On Wednesday I sent out a mass text message to my friends saying it was national fast from Facebook day. Some replied saying "Yes I can do that" while others just simply made me laugh out loud. One of the many hilarious replies I got included "Nooooo where is the unlike button" to which I replied " This is real life sweetheart there is no unlike button".

I've been thinking for days how much Facebook has really taken over our lives. I sent out this text around eight something Wednesday morning, and so many people have already logged onto Facebook before 9 am. That kind of blew me away... Facebook was accessed before our prayers were said, Facebook was accessed before our first cup of coffee, or before we even brushed our teeth...that's how relevant Facebook has become in our lives.

One thing I've been wanting to do for a little over a year now was to deactivate my Facebook account and focus on what's important. I never could do it...I was always scared...I was afraid of not being in touch with people...or loosing pics that I've posted on there since 2006. I had reasons after reasons to not let go. But I've had even more reasons to let go...like all the dramatic folks that have joined the last year or so. My relationship with Christ being put on the back burner or even how many times during a study session we all take for Facebook break.

Well I was really brave this morning. I got up and I determined that I was going to deactivate my account for the rest of the semester. I was doing it first thing Monday morning, but as I walked around the house this morning I thought to myself "why wait till Monday when you can do it right now?" I mean my email account is connected to my BlackBerry which mean Facebook alerts come straight to my inbox, which compels me to check it perhaps during the sermon, why let something distract me I'm going to let go anyways. So..I did...at around 8 something this morning...I the slight Facebook addict hit the deactivate button. I'm not swearing off Facebook forever by any means, but until graduation I must...19 hours, a demanding part time job, and trying to keep my relationship with Christ stable that's more than enough on my plate...I don't need anymore distractions.

I'm really proud of myself, all I could do my text message my two best friends and tell them of my good news :-). YAY ME!!!!!

Thursday, August 19, 2010

Me ME MMMEEE!!!!!!!!!!

So in four months I am too walk to one of the most famous tunes in America "Pomp & Circumstances". I am so very excited! yet nervous at the same time. This graduation is a huge deal to me even bigger than high school, because I'm the one who almost didn't make it. I almost gave up on college, almost dropped out, almost thought it wasn't for me...years later here I am graduating in the top 15% of my class. No one will quite understand the struggles I put up with because when they saw me they didn't see struggles they saw a constantly smiling face. They didn't see the girl who wasn't quite sure if she was going to make it they saw a girl who skipped every step of the way.

This is the first time in my life I have no idea what's going to happen to me after graduation. There is no plan....graduate school? continue in the corporate world? live overseas for a while? There's beauty in this yet it's pushing beyond my comfort zone. See the beauty of it all is my faith says "you father hasn't taken you anywhere you weren't supposed to be and you've made it all the way through here with his help" comfort zone says "Plans plans PLANS!!!!! What if you missed your sign you idiot" HAHAH!

Well my true reason for writing this blog is to ask...when I pray it seems like it's me always asking God to show me the next step. Everything else isn't as important...it's almost a self centered prayer...is that selfish of me? I mean my faith has taught me that I am the apple of his eye and he's waiting for me to ask, but at the same time...do I always ask? Am I being selfish when the one thing that concerns me the most is my plans after graduation? Everything else is a oh bless them be with them..help them Lord, BUT show me, guide me, help me....


Monday, August 9, 2010

The Essence of Eden


An acquaintance asked for help with her portfolio, and I had such a blast doing this...Thanks for thinking of me!!!!. We used a point and shoot till the photographer came....Enjoy