Every girl has dreamed of the day when she gets to put on that big pouffy dress, and walk down the aisle while angelic music is being played. All eyes would be on her, while she focuses on the man that is waiting for her up front. Unfortunate for my prince charming I have never spend too much time and effort on this thought. I am what most folks will prefer to as "passive" when it comes to the idea of marriage or a wedding. Though in my past I have looked for love in all the wrong places happily forever wasn't quite the agenda at hand. Well that is until now! I am now what most people to refer to as "an adult". I am also in a very healthy, GOD centered relationship so the idea of marriage is a wee but more realistic now that it was year or so ago. So last night my significant other challenges me! He challenged me to pray a bold prayer towards marriage. I said I would, then this morning I thought "am I really ready for the idea of marriage?". I can easily see us spending the rest of our lives together as man and wife, but has GOD prepared my mind to take on that role. There are days I can say "WHY YES OF COURSE!!! I can do all things through CHRIST who strengthens me!!". Then there are days like today when I get a little "worried", because I think if I get married I'm giving up ME. That after marriage there won't be any more exciting tales, or trips with my friend, or my own space, and freedom. I won't be just me....it'll be me + 1. Will I be able to do random acts? Pick up and leave? Not wash the dishes till I feel like it? Yes yes it is all quite selfish, and I can honestly say the reason I choose not to be married right now is because of my slight selfishness. But then in the recent years it became about GOD's timing,and him preparing me for that very moment that I walk down the aisle, and then the time afterwards. I have to say he has brought me a mighty long way in my thinking towards marriage and commitment, but I KNOW he has some more to do before he can let me walk down that aisle.
So prince charming I will wake up tomorrow and continue to seek GOD in our "Godly tale"
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