Praise and worship started a little after 11:00 am, and I felt a bit out of zone...I felt like I was at a concert, and I thought about all the things I could blog about (wrong I know). I finally got myself together and tried my best to get into the grove of things. During one of the songs the Pastor and his wife came up and said a few words, and the minute they opened their mouth it was like God was telling them what he would have told me if I knew how to listen. Of course me being the hyperactive, why wasn't this done yesterday, lets go go go kinda person I find it hard to sometime be still. I should point out that I am the biggest cry baby at church I don't know what it is but everytime I am at church I am overwhelmed by these feelings, so when he started speaking I had to do everything in my power to keep tears from flowing. I was so happy when they got off the stage and praise and worship continued. After what seemed like a more than brief introduction Bishop Jakes walked up the stage he took care of some house keeping details, and I anxiously awaited what he had to say. Is there really a reason I'm here? Was I just being lazy and saving myself that drive or did that voice mean something when it said "go listen to Bishop Jakes". He answered my question rather quickly "I believe this is a destined meeting"....ok thanks for that God appreciate such a quick response. I sat there and listened to him and he during his sermon he says "I don't know who I'm preaching too". I'm sure many people felt he was talking to them, but I knew for sure he was talking to this girl who has been feeling like the rest of the world could never understand what has been going down in her life. Each day a struggle, each step heavy, each question unanswered. I kept blinking my eyes heavily to keep the tears from flowing and I am proud to say I was very successful. It felt good not to be forgotten. I remember clearly asking God before I went to sleep Saturday night "God please don't forget about me", and its like he was telling me don't worry I got you baby girl!!!
Another amazing thing about my first encounter, for years I've been telling my friends "The same God that brought you through in the past is the same God you serve now and he will bring you through this" I've never had anyone tell me this, but as destiny would have it Bishop Jakes said that exact thing to me. It made me gasp a bit to have the same words that came out of my mouth time and time again was being repeated back to me by an absolute stranger.....
